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Skip That Part

9/4/2020

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 Recently my mentor Kathlyn Hendricks was talking about the concept of how at first the whispers of things in our life that need our attention appear like a feather's tickle, and if we don't face what's showing up, the Universe will eventually deliver the message like a sledgehammer. I have definitely noticed this pattern in my own life and I committed years ago to listening to the feather. I don't always get it right, but for the most part, I've allowed myself to enjoy the ease that comes with facing what is up for me directly before the WHAM of the sledgehammer. 

Somewhere that I notice this "feather or the sledgehammer" concept showing up is in the dance of limbo that many people find themselves in with commitment. I've typically been quick to transition into changes and accepting what comes with my decisions. I actively avoid limbo because I know that it's a hazardous place to be navigating. When we're in limbo we aren't fully located and instead are moving our energy between two fields, playing a kind of Hokey-Pokey with our life. I wrote this blog about limbo, if you want to learn more about it. 

Do you find yourself doing the dance of 'I want to' and 'I don't want to!' about something you have already committed to? Something that deep inside you know you really want? A couple of years ago I noticed a friend was stuck in a pattern of being hijacked by fear and it went something like the following:

First, my friend said:
"I commit to___________"
and then what came next was...
  • :::taking action steps towards goal::::
  • :::moving along happily, feeling good::::
  • ::::slowly drifting off to familiar distraction patterns:::: ​
  • :::::totally off in distraction land, losing connection with self and goals::::
  • ::::me noticing, and asking "what's going on?"::::
And the following limbo DANCE BEGINS...
friend says:
  • "maybe I'm not in" 
  • "I guess I'm not in because I'm not doing what I said I was going to do"
  • "maybe this isn't the right path for me"
  • "If I really wanted this, I'd be taking action"
  • "If I really wanted this I wouldn't get distracted."
  • "I don't think I can do this."
  • ::::pausing to breathe, use Fear Melters®
  • "well, I DO really want this. OK, I recommit." 

Rinse... repeat... over and over again until something interrupts the cycle. This can sometimes be where the feather turns into the sledgehammer because when we aren't present in our life we tend to cause upsets. Often work or relationship struggles arise because we aren't in integrity with ourselves.. When we aren't being real with ourselves and others it's like having a pebble in our shoe. The pebble is in the background, getting more painful the more we ignore it. 

Here is where I made an important suggestion to my friend: "Hey, how about you just skip that part?"  I had noticed a pattern of this limbo dance over and over again and I realized that it was simply FEAR showing up. I could see that my friend was committed to their goal AND was scared, rather than on the wrong path. I suggested that they stop questioning their commitment and instead simply face that they were scared. This might sound too simplistic, but it worked. They made the decision that next time they drifted from their commitment that they will presence their fear, recommit and move on. They would skip the part where they beat themselves up and questioned their decision.

We have brain patterns, unconscious habits, that keep us stuck and we can rewire our brains by bringing awareness to these unwanted patterns and making one change. It doesn't take a lot to make a change, but it does require consistent easeful effort. Often we make things hard by pushing ourselves and losing presence. When we are on the path of a new goal, we'll have to gather our energy to initiate it, but eventually we'll be rewarded by new habits that support the life we want. 

It is hard enough to stay on the path to a commitment without the added stress of self criticism and questioning oneself. If you know you want something but are struggling to stay on the path, let yourself face your fear. Ask yourself what it is that you aren't facing directly. Perhaps you are scared of failing, or you don't think you have what it takes.  This might turn out to be true but you'll never know unless you put your whole self in and do it in spite of your fear. And you will likely stumble and take wrong turns because making mistakes comes with trying new things. It requires courage to be willing to make mistakes in front of others and courage is something we can choose. I love what Brenè Brown writes about courage: 

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Courage is like—it’s a habitus, a habit, a virtue: You get it by courageous acts. It’s like you learn to swim by swimming. You learn courage by couraging."

I love this and have found it to be true. I also see that the mistakes I made led to greater awareness and helped me on my path; it is arguable whether they were indeed mistakes.

​Here are three steps you can take to help you with new commitments:


1. Make a clear commitment. Use your full body to literally step into the commitment by stating it out loud: "I commit to________" as you physically step forward. Notice your body sensations, see if your whole body is ready for this commitment.

2. If you notice fear, remember that fear is simply energy moving through. Take three connected belly breaths, move your body in ways that feel good, and try the commitment process again. Allow yourself to play with your commitment rather than have it feel like a burden. If you notice yourself getting serious, move around, and breathe deeply until you feel connected again. Bring in some play, it's a great antidote for fear. 

3. When you get distracted skip the part where you criticize yourself for wandering off your path. Remember that recommitment is part of the process. Let yourself feel whatever feelings that might arise, fear, sadness, anger, and then let your whole body recommit by stepping forward as you state: "I recommit to ______________". 

Sometimes we commit to something that winds up being wrong turn or dead end. I find that by using our whole body intelligence, that will become evident sooner, the more you show up. Another part of stretching towards a goal is finding a new goal along the way. It is important to hold loosely to our goals, allowing ourselves to make adjustments along the way, while learning, growing and move forward. Failing is not fun, but it sure beats being stuck in limbo, or never trying at all.

What I notice is that the Universe rewards our efforts. When we show up fully, support shows up, the stars align, and the path slowly becomes easier and more clear. Stepping into a commitment is the only real way to create a fulfilling life, and though you will have to make that first step yourself, the helpers will show up and you'll begin to experience being in the right place at the right time. Try it and when your doubts creep in remember to skip that part!

Michele Yasuda
Sassy Visionary of Wholeness
Big Leap Life and Relationship Coach
www.MicheleandDean.com
​Thrive@MicheleandDean.com 
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Yes, And...

5/5/2020

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There's a concept in improvisation that's called "Yes, And..." that I have been thinking about recently. The idea is that whatever the person you are interacting with tosses, you accept and move with, and rather than block the energy you find a way to say yes. What I have noticed is that I can use this principle in my everyday life even when the "tosses" don't feel friendly. I see it as responding rather than reacting, meeting what is happening rather than resisting, and I find it is key to experiencing aliveness.

Having faced the 'toss' from the Universe in the form of COVID-19, and than facing the horror of the murders of George Floyd and other Black men and women, I am getting lots of practice noticing and feeling my resistance and choosing to turn towards what is. I'm accepting that it's time for me to face the unknown about COVID-19, and my own racism and lack of knowledge about privilege. 

The first action steps I am choosing are to educate myself, listen and learn. We are in complex times because the flaws in the foundation of our country when it comes to social justice are glaringly obvious. The injustice on our planet has caused an ache in my heart for so many years and I am heartened that this system of oppression and harm is coming to light. I expect that the dismantling will be messy, uncomfortable and scary and I am willing to face what comes and make changes in my own life.

I have daily practices, such as belly breathing and Fear Melters® that support me in my readiness to face the unexpected with grace. I think of these tools as filling my "piggy-bank" for when I need them. I am training my body to respond, rather than react, to the unexpected. And with all that is happening in our world today, I notice that my reserves are being drawn upon daily.

When we got thrown the big ole' toss from the Universe in the form of COVID-19 I've noticed how varied my responses have been. In the first couple of weeks, I felt my ability to meet the crisis with creativity and action, and I rode that wave all the way through. In the next phase, I felt a curtain come down, and my energy began to drain, and I required more rest and self-care than usual, and what I see now, is that I am not the same person today as I was pre-COVID-19. Now that we are shaking loose the hidden yet obvious racism in our country, I am glad that this new version of me is here to face this important time on our planet. She's gotten far better at the unknown than her predecessor. 

I know that I have much to learn. This is both exhilarating and unsettling. I am curious about how my clients, my community, and my world are moving through this time. I feel scared at the thought of facing this crisis without the tools and the practices that I have committed to in my life. I notice that some people are taking these times with grace and some have put their fighting gloves on. What I notice is that there are many who are clinging to what is familiar and don't want to see that life is new, and that change is necessary and can bring great opportunities for transformation.

We have collectively stepped into the unknown in a big way and though I am deeply saddened by the devastating losses to the Black Community, and from COVID-19, I feel a spark of possibility that our planet has a chance to wake up. I know that without the consciousness tools I've learned and actively practiced, I'd probably be frozen in fear. Carl Jung taught the concept that what we resist persists, and I have found this to be accurate. Are you finding yourself fighting against wearing a mask? Are you a white person saying "I'm colorblind"? What I notice about myself is if I am pushing against something, I'm usually scared.

Attempting to control our circumstances when we feel scared is a survival instinct. This is helpful when we are up against something like being trapped in a dangerous place and need to get out, but it's not so helpful when we distract ourself from what is really happening by projecting our fear onto someone or something else.  If you find yourself feeling fight-y, and want to tune in with what is really happening for you, you might try the following that I learned from my work with the Restoring Resourcefulness Program:

PRESENCING:
1st step: Turn fully towards what you are feeling inside right now.
2nd step: Open up your posture. Relax your jaw, uncross arms/legs.
3rd step: Breathe easily. Put your hand on your belly and release your breath while slightly contracting your belly, then blow your belly up like a balloon while you take a nice deep breath in. Practice this for a a minute or two.

F.A.C.T:
Now you can use a part of the F.A.C.T. process:
Open to curiosity by creating a pleasant Hmmmm sound. (This is calming to our system.) and ask yourself what it is that you aren't facing fully about all of this.  Keep breathing while you Hmmmm and ask yourself: "What am I not fully facing about all of this?"

If you are interested in continuing your exploration of this, you can go here: for the rest of the process of F.A.C.T. 

Whatever you discovered, my guess is that you will create more flow and ease in yourself if you look at what is underneath your resistance to what is happening in our world right now. What I want most for myself and for our world, is for us to take this toss from the Universe and create from it. My mentor Katie Hendricks asks the question: How can you turn this into creative expression? and I love this challenge.

COVID-19 and Black Lives Matter are here and our world is new. Necessary changes are happening and I am choosing to embrace them rather than cling to the old version of life. I have faced that it is time for me to educate myself about systemic racism, and then make changes and speak up. I have faced that my life doesn't look the same way that it did before our global  pandemic began and I'm OK with that. I'm learning how to be with what is. And this feels like freedom to me.

To be rooted in a belief system without openness to learning is dangerous and has had devastating effects on our world.
If you are having thoughts like "all lives matter," please educate yourself. This is a time for looking beyond yourself. I am embarrassed to say that I said this to one of my adult children a few years ago and in one sharp sentence I was awake and grateful I raised young adults who speak up for justice. A resource about racism that I am choosing to begin my learning with is  "My Grandmother's Hands: Racialized Trauma and the Pathway to Mending our Hearts and Bodies" and I also learned about racism from Ian Haney Lopez's work. 

And please wear a mask when you are in public. I get that you might believe it is the wrong way to handle the pandemic, but this is a time for us to think beyond our own belief systems and wake to the possibility that there is another viewpoint far more important. To be rooted in a belief system without openness to learning is dangerous and has had devastating effects on our world.


I am choosing to turn towards the ways that I can take responsibility and support a global movement towards creating a world that works for everyone. Will you join me?

I'd love to hear what your thoughts are and how you are doing through this time - you can comment below or email me HERE. 

Much Love,
Michele
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Location, Location

11/7/2019

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Many years ago my uncle shared the concept of how important location is when thinking about buying a house. What I've grown to understand since,  is that where I locate myself affects my life profoundly and I'm grateful for this wisdom. Whether it is surrounding myself with supportive friends or the beauty of nature, what I choose to be around matters.  What I notice is that where I locate myself in my consciousness is what matters most. In fact, it's where my whole life springs forth from.
Do you live in a world of Infinite Possibility or are you located in a world that tells you that you can't have the life you really desire? I commit to living from the consciousness that I want to live in, rather than one that has been imposed on me from the world around me, or hidden in the depths of my earliest learned experiences. I choose to locate myself in the field of Infinite possibility and inspire others to do the same. This choosing requires attention and recommitment, sometimes moment-to-moment.  I find that having daily breathing and integrity practices support me in this journey.
I feel grateful for every teacher I've had who has pointed me in this direction, especially Kathlyn Hendricks for the clarity she shares about 'location.' She speaks about how she creates spaciousness with clock-time by locating herself in space, not time. I have found this to be true. I can breathe spaciousness into my day with my perspective. If I look at my day and all I want to accomplish from a clock-time perspective, I am going to have a frantic day of rush-rush with waves of failure as the day closes and my list of to-do's is still looming. If instead I face into my day with an open heart, response-ability, and a sense of spaciousness, I can create from what is truly possible and feel a sense of accomplishment that brings aliveness and joy as I close out my day.
 I choose to locate myself in the field of Infinite possibility and inspire others to do the same.
I see this as an art form, this way of living that feels alive and delightful.  I bring myself out of being subject to the happenings of my days like a leaf whipping around in the air, and into being the master-creator of my life. I cannot control all that is happening yet I can create a sense of safety and grounded-ness that feels nurturing and delicious as I face into what is.  The joy I feel in perceiving space around my activities feeds what I want to give my attention to, multiplying the ingredients that add up to the life of my choosing. I know that what I turn towards is what grows in my consciousness; and when I experience this sense of inner harmony I can gift the world with my cultivated presence.  And our world is hungry for conscious presence. 
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"I invite you to step back and look with your artist's eye at your own life. Consider it amorphous material, not yet deliberately crafted. Reflect upon what it is, and what it could be. Imagine how you will feel, and what those around you will lose, if it does not become what it could be." Eknath Easwaran. 
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I agree with these words and offer one slight change: Imagine how you will feel and what those around you will lose if you do not become what you can be.  Is it time for you to relocate your consciousness? Your life is worth your exquisite attention.  I have found this consciousness move expansive and a constant delight. What single, easy step could you take towards creating a sense of spaciousness and by when will you take it?

Here are three reliable steps to locating yourself in Infinite Possibility:
  1.  Learn to breathe properly. Most of us had our healthy breathing interrupted and this adds stress to our system. In a nutshell, relax your belly as you slowly breathe in, filling your belly like a balloon, and slowly release your breath as you slightly tighten your belly. 
  2.  Use your whole body to locate yourself.   Ground yourself by standing up straight, softening your knees slightly and doing a heel drop  - raise yourself up on your toes and gently drop your heels as you say "Here I am."  
  3. Make a commitment to living from Infinite Space. When we commit we gather our energy in a certain direction. Having a statement to lean into when you forget is supportive of creating a new way of living. "I live in the Field of Infinite Possibility" or "I enjoy plenty of time for all I want to accomplish." or "I expand my capacity to live in Infinite Possibility every day." Choose an affirmative statement that brings feelings and openness to your whole body when you say it.

Peace and Blessings,
Michele
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Michele Roberts

Sassy Visionary of Wholeness
Big Leap Life and Relationship Coach
Agape Licensed Spiritual Practitioner
Co-Founder Michele and Dean, LLC
Michele@micheleanddean.com
www.MicheleAndDean.com
805)791-5095


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OS Essence

7/6/2018

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How do I know what's true? Katie Hendricks posed this question to our leadership and transformation program last week, and I've been exploring it to some wild ends since then. I've found that I am too often under the influence of a fear-based operating system and require an upgrade.

I have my eye on OS Essence, which features joy and harmony as it's default program. That sounds good to me only I wish my upgrade could be as simple as pressing a few buttons and being patient for an hour or so. That may not be possible, but I can choose to make my upgrade as friendly as possible, and after un-buckling my seat-belt, I can enjoy the ride. 

So what are the essential requirements for this upgrade?
  1. Being open and willing
  2. Dedicating time for self care which includes proper breathing, exercise, healthy food, rest.
  3. Spending time in creative expression
  4. Nurturing my relationships

WOW, that sounds like a lot of requirements.

The good news is that OS Essence will be available forever. No rush on this one. It took me years to include more and more self care and creative expression. And the great news is that each inclusion, each addition, no matter how small it seems, can bring a greater sense of harmony. Taking small steps is a sustainable model and thriving requires sustainability. 

OS Essence provides pathways to authentic connection with my inner self, my essence. And this makes it possible for authentic connection with my world. I feel happy thinking about this, because what is most important to me, is showing up completely for myself and my world.  I think with OS Essence, I can do this.

Let me know what you think in the comments below. 

Peace and Blessings,
Michele

Sassy Visionary of Wholeness
Big Leap Life and Relationship Coach
Agape Licensed Spiritual Practitioner
Co-Founder Michele and Dean, LLC
Michele@micheleanddean.com
www.MicheleAndDean.com
805)791-5095




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In the Woods

5/23/2018

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It's a funny thing, being a human. I mean, I believe that we're more than just our human form, but that doesn't always help me when I'm lost in the woods.  Even though I know that there is an infinite energy for good at the helm, my human mind doesn't always use that resource very well. Lately I've felt a little lost, which is a funny thing for a life coach and licensed Spiritual Practitioner to admit. Me? Human? What?!

What I have found is that expanding out beyond my old limitations is pretty darn scary. It takes an inordinate amount of courage to stretch out past what is familiar into uncharted ground. I'd say my greatest challenge came because of two of the most awesome gifts from my Hendricks Institute training: essence pace and breathing. It was an incredible blessing to learn how to move at the pace that feels real and true for me, and how to breathe properly, which has completely rewired my system. Now when I move at my old pace, I feel rushed and stressed, which is a big NO for me since my transformation. But moving fast was all that I knew for such a long time and this new way of living is so foreign that I sometimes don't know who I am. I can feel like I’m not doing enough, not moving forward. And this makes me vulnerable to my self-critic.

The old me moved through life quickly and got a lot done. I mean A LOT! The old me filled my days with as much as she could, making sure I was "working" and "moving forward" all the time.  Think New-Jersey-East-Coast style: go go go go go goooooooo! This new me, she refuses to move at that pace and knows that there is enough time for whatever needs to happen. She knows that she is the creator of time in her world. But the old me still lives within, and she's quite the little rascal. She's a critic in my head saying I am not doing enough, or that I'm not focusing on the right things, and sometimes she's yelling "fire-fire!" or at least that's what it feels like.  I think I'll call her Lil' Rascal from now on.

A fantastic tool of the Hendricks is the concept of  ‘personas.’ Lil' Rascal is an excellent example of one. Personas are aspects of our personality that we developed to deal with fear and they are often linked to how we got attention when we were young. The thing about personas is that they are really an essence quality of ours that is coming out sideways. Lil' Rascal is a messy expression of an essence quality of mine: I’m a creative thinker who can find unique ways to accomplish goals. Lil' Rascal developed when I was small, because my creative nature made me seem flaky or weird to adults around me, so she showed up to help me prove myself. The sentence I hear most in my head is "Oh that Michele" which pretty much tells the story of why Lil' Rascal is trying so hard.  She never felt like she was seen as capable or reliable.

I'd like to learn more about Lil' Rascal so I can understand her better.  I'll use a fabulous Hendricks tool called the Persona Interview. 

So, Lil’ Rascal...
What's the most important thing to you? "to prove myself." 

And what are you most proud of? "well, I get a lot done." 
And when did you make your first appearance? hmmmm. I'm not sure...  
And who did you learn your style from? "Oh, I think that would be my grandma, she never stopped and did so many amazing things for people." 
And what are you most afraid of? "being seen as a failure." 
And what do you most want? "to be seen... to succeed."


After pondering this a bit, I see that I may have learned my style more from my Dad, who probably learned it from his mom. I feel more clear about how Lil' Rascal is deeply rooted in my essence - my passion for life, my creative way of seeing the world. I see that how somehow I got the idea that something was wrong with me and my way of doing things and have spent most of my life trying to prove myself. Wow.

I'd like to put Lil' Rascal into retirement and that is going to take a serious commitment. She has been my constant companion for my whole life. She is so damn good at shaming me for not getting the latest post on instagram, or lagging on a commitment. "Oh that Michele"  And then, there I am, feeling lost in the woods not knowing how I got there. Keeping myself out of the woods is really about recognizing Lil' Rascal's critical voice in my head and gracefully tuning it out. Maybe I'll send Lil' Rascal to the woods to keep her busy while my true essence leads me out, because feeling lost in the woods goes against my very nature.  It's one thing to feel unclear and another to be lost in self-criticism. At my core is an unrelenting optimist, who sees possibility and solutions everywhere, and dang, my inner critic is like the weeds in my backyard, persistent and strong. Freeing myself from Lil' Rascal sounds like quite a fantastic idea.

When my essence is leading, I feel light and free. I may walk through the woods but I'm not afraid; rather, I am looking for ways to enjoy the journey knowing that I am always in the right place at the right time.  Lil' Rascal, your evil reign is over. This is my life, my journey through the woods, and if I feel like frolicking for awhile, I'm damn well going to enjoy it.

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Michele Roberts
Sassy Visionary of Wholeness
Certified Big Leap Coach
Agape Licensed Spiritual Practitioner
​Co-Owner, Michele and Dean, LLC
​Michele@MicheleandDean.com

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Putting Our Whole Selves In

4/11/2018

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Something I have noticed lately in myself and some clients is a kind of dance between moving forward and backwards that ends up looking like the Hokey Pokey. I put my foot in, I take my foot out, I put my foot in and I shake it all about. As a childhood game, this is really wonderful because I get to try on being "in" or "out" and also I can celebrate the "in" with a "shake" and "turning myself around." As a way of life, it is not so great, in fact, it's nothing to celebrate.

Living in limbo is a precarious state that I keep my eye out for in both myself and my clients. It is a negative habit pattern that I have chosen to transform in my own life, which has been a powerful move towards greater freedom and joy. Getting familiar with our limbo patterns is the first step in the journey. Think of it as an adventure in curiosity... hmmm I wonder how I do limbo? 

Limbo is much like the Hokey Pokey where we move forward and backward - between yes, and no, between this or that. It's also like putting your toes into the waters of a new project and then quickly taking them out, as it's far too cold in there. And this can go on and on ad nauseam until either we choose, or the Universe does, but make no mistake, a choice will eventually be made.

Life-Force is not static, so if we stay inactive for too long, our soul will co-conspire with the Universe to wake us up. And let me be clear about this, that's usually not much fun.  I'm an entrepreneur, and have had plenty of experience of both ways of moving forward, and for sure I enjoy sitting in the creator seat way more than hanging on by a thread as my soul plunges me into some kind of seemingly eternal wake-up-call-from-hell. But does limbo have to be a stop along the way to change? My experience tells me that it does not, and can sometimes be simply an issue of time urgency. 

I find that sometimes limbo is supposed to be the place in between, a place of rest and integration which is a natural part of expansion.  Often, because we get off-balanced in our sense of timing, we turn it into a kind of self-inflicted purgatory, where we beat ourselves up for not moving fast enough. This happens when we know we want something and are impatient to move forward. We are probably moving faster or slower than our essence pace, the natural flow that feels most alive to us. These are times when limbo is simply an issue of timing. It usually looks like this: When we've made a decision there is a natural time of letting our bodies align with it, before we step fully in. We might simply need to sit in the YES for a little while, in the in-between, as we gather our whole selves in for our first step.

There is a natural rhythm for expansion, and when we are moving forward consciously, we will experience contraction as merely part of the journey. This is when it is time to locate ourselves in the spaciousness, and allow the moment to pass, or it's time to rest and integrate. I do this by saying Hey Now, I am Here or Here I am and feeling my feet on the ground and checking in with my pace. If I notice that I am speeded up, I ask myself what my time urgency is about, and if I feel sluggish, I wonder whether I might need rest. Either way, I ask myself whether I am needing rest, or activity and then I recommit to my goal by doing what feels authentic.

You might be wondering how we know whether it is rest and integration time or limbo. I think that practicing body intelligence is key. Can I feel the difference between rest/integration and limbo? What does limbo feel like in my body? And what does rest feel like? These are excellent questions to wonder into. I notice that the more I practice listening to my whole body, the more I have clarity about what I want, and whether I am in flow or fear. Because make no mistake, limbo is based in fear. It is a contractive energy, rather than an expansive one. Rest and integration are spacious and light, fear is tight and heavy.

You can try this on right now. Think of a situation in which you are undecided. Let yourself think about it for a few seconds. What type of energy came with the thought? Did you feel expansive and excited, or tight and contracted? Did you beat yourself up for being undecided? Whatever came up for you, take a few deep breaths and give yourself some love for being willing to experience whatever it is.

So what if we really are in limbo, playing the hokey-pokey with a decision or phase in our life? As I mentioned earlier, the thing about life is that it refuses to be static. I often tell people to think about what they are fighting against when taking on the Universe. Hmmm, let's see... in this corner there's Michele Roberts, and that corner,  Infinite Energy and Power. hmmmmm. And though I see that infinite energy and power is available to me, I haven't yet been able to achieve it at the cosmic level for more than a second or two, so I do my best to stay in the flow of energy rather than taking it on nose-to-nose.

What I am saying is that limbo is a dangerous place to be. I would love to inspire you to look at whatever in-between state you are in and recognize it either as the natural "rest and integration" phase of change, or the fear-based hokey-pokey and then act accordingly. Oh, yes, it will mean action, even if that action is moving towards rest. Rest, you say, who has time for that? If that is what came up for you, let me assure you that you require rest, and ignoring your need for it can be your trap in limbo land.

So this is where commitment comes in. Yep, I said the "c" word and I'm not even a bit sorry about it. Without commitment we can not move forward. Without commitment, our ideas, goals and desires have no wings. So why is commitment such a scary word if it is our gateway to success? First of all, we often are far more afraid to succeed than to fail. We are all familiar with what failure feels like, but when was the last time you checked in on how comfortable you are with success?

This is another concept that comes alive through noticing body signals. Think about something really, really wonderful that you want in your life, and allow yourself to get super excited about it for a minute. Maybe it's taking a big trip or changing your line of work, or meeting an amazing partner to share your life with.  Be sure to let yourself really touch and feel the vision. Now let me ask you, when you got those good feelings flowing, did you notice any pangs in your body?  

Gay and Katie Hendricks teach the concept of the Upper Limit Problem (ULP), and I make up that it is why most of us stay in limbo.  It is not that we are afraid we will fail, it is far more likely that succeeding is beyond our comfort zone and that we are scared to experience so much good. For me, this shows up as when's the other shoe gonna drop?  I'll be feeling super happy one second, and then suddenly I'll feel a little pang in my stomach and I'll have a fear thought which will involve something bad happening and unfortunately I can be pretty creative about this.

This used to be an unconscious process for me, but since I learned the ULP concept, I now recognize the feeling in my body when it's up for me. One of my favorite new moves is to face the "shoe's gonna drop" idea by imagining that I have a shoe box filled with tiny Barbie shoes in all different colors and sizes. When I have the "shoe ULP," I imagine taking a big scoop of the shoes and playfully tossing them in the air which always brings a smile or a laugh, and then I'm back in flow, expanding my capacity for love, success and abundance.

So, can you see how limbo and our upper limit problem go together? Sometimes the fear of committing is simply that we are experiencing an ULP and instead of noticing, giving curious attention to, we use it as an excuse to stop. Now think about that decision that you were playing with earlier and wonder into whether achieving it will take you to more joy, abundance or success than you are used to, and then picture yourself expanding bigger than the doubt, bigger than you've ever been before. Allow yourself the full expression of your doubts, fears and excitement, and then breathe deeply and make a choice. And if you decide to move forward, seal it with this: "I commit to..." and then take a step forward, literally putting an action step into the commitment. You have now taken the first of many steps towards your goal. Because commitment is only a step along the journey and it will likely be followed by a series of "recommitments" as you move through the natural expansion and contractions of your journey.

Recommitting is not failure, it is quite the opposite; recommitment is a firming up of the edges of your forward motion, and the more tricky the expansion you are navigating, the more times you will be doing it. There is no shame in recommitment; simply gather yourself up, do it, and leave your shame personas in the back of the bus where they belong. Or put them in charge of leading the journey, as they've served you so well in keeping you down, and perhaps they will enjoy the new task of cheerleading each of your steps forward.

So if you've been playing the Hokey Pokey with something in your life, take a brave new step and jump all the way in. I've recently been practicing this and I have found more joy and aliveness with each step, and every day it feels a less scary and a lot more fun. And a big shout out to Temple Hayes who during a sacred ritual leaned in close and said to me, "Put your whole self in... like the Hokey Pokey." I never forgot those words. So let's leave the Hokey Pokey for the kids, and put our whole selves in.

I'd love to hear about your journey and what you think of my musings, so please comment below, and if you find my blog valuable, please consider sharing it on social media or with friends.

Peace and Joyous Blessings,
Michele

Michele Roberts
Certified Big Leap Coach
Agape Licensed Spiritual Practitioner
Sassy Visionary of Wholeness
​Co-Owner, Michele and Dean, LLC

​Michele@MicheleandDean.com

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Living from the Inside Out

2/20/2018

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Recently I was at a leadership and transformation training with the Hendricks Institute and we discussed the concept of endogenous versus exogenous living. Exogenous is from the outside in, and endogenous is from the inside out.

I thought about how people tend to create structures based on exogenous experiences in childhood. We may have experienced trauma, or our culture simply informed us on how to live our lives. Rather than live from a paradigm of personal responsibility and integrity, we may have made choices based on what was happening on the outside. 
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I am grateful that we humans were built with a brain that knows how to fit in when it is important, such as respecting the personal rights of our community. I also appreciate that our brains respond to threat, as when the saber-toothed tiger was running about, we sure needed it. And we still do when crossing a busy street.  But what if this fear system is working overtime?

If we primarily live exogenously, we are living in a foundation based mostly in fear. I have found that fear is not always the greatest of leaders. Perceived threat is much different from real threat, and it is insidious in its power. One only has to look at our current American political structure to see evidence of this power.  

Moving into endogenous living while our protection system is firing, is not a task for the meek. There are tools a plenty, and most of them center around overriding the fear. I have found this to be like a band-aid approach, and I'm not a fan of short term thinking.

Building a new foundation for your life takes time and in our culture of soundbites and adrenaline rides from the latest blockbuster movie, it is hard to believe we have time to spare.  The most powerful step that I have taken has been learning how to breathe properly. I found that my breathing practice led me to another powerful shift-move from fear to flow called "Essence Pace."

I learned this tool from Kathlyn Hendricks, a powerful teacher of body wisdom; and it is the concept that we all have a natural rhythm in which we feel most alive. Now I grew up in New Jersey, only about 30 miles from Manhattan and you could say the pace was fast. In fact, I grew up in a family where walking fast was a point of pride.
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You can now begin to imagine my surprise at finding out that there was such a thing as "Essence Pace," a pace that was natural to each individual, and that my lifetime of moving at the speed of light (ha) wasn't truly in alignment with me. In fact, when we did the exercise to discover our Essence Pace at a training I was attending, I was shocked to find myself walking much slower than I typically do. Equally shocking was catching a glimpse of Dean, my partner, as he seemed to be speeding around the place.  You see he grew up in Hawaii, and identified with the chill, 'hey-what's-the-rush?' pace that he moved at most of his life. 

Finding our true pace has been a game changer for us. For me, I find that moving fast, though seemingly normal, is actually an adrenalized experience. I was literally rushing through my life. Whew!... what a discovery! Unhooking from this habit has been a process, and one that I am giving attention to on a daily basis. And the gateway to finding and maintaining my Essence Pace is my breathing practice.

And Dean discovered that 'chill' was actually a sort of hiding place for him and he comes alive at a much faster pace. What an opening to freedom living at our natural pace has been for myself and my partner. The affect on our relationship is undeniable, as we are so much more available to one another now.

So breathing properly and Essence Pace were two of the steps I took towards endogenous living. And this has opened up powerful opportunities for me. Moving towards living from the inside out has truly been a big YES to LIFE for me.

I would love to hear your comments and questions. Please comment below. And if you find it valuable, please forward it to a friend or share on social media. Thank you!

Peace and Bright Blessings,
Michele

Michele Roberts
Certified Big Leap Coach
Agape Licensed Spiritual Practitioner
​Michele@MicheleandDean.com

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the best matching-program ever

1/9/2018

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Integrity is the essence of everything successful.
​R. Buckminster Fuller
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I've been noticing something profound lately, and maybe you've had this experience too, when an idea suddenly becomes crystal clear and then proceeds to keep showing up in your life, over and over again.

My latest noticing is this: the Universe offers us the best matching program ever! What? Let me explain by backing up a little.
The way I understand it, we live in an energetic field that I call the Universe, and it's dancing along with us at all times. 
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The Universe I'm referring to isn't a personality, it's a vibrational field of resonance which responds (resonates) to our own energy field.  To put it simply, when we're feeling peaceful, we tend to experience more peaceful experiences, and when we're feeling chaotic inside, well, to borrow a line from Harry Potter: "It's going to be a bumpy ride!"

This doesn't mean if we meditate a zillion hours a day and chant "peace, shanti, peace" that we'll have a smooth and carefree life. If that were the case, our world would look quite different. What it does mean is that we're the creators of our experience of life and can influence how it moves forward by how we direct our energy. 

Now back to the 'matching program' idea - what I notice lately is how, when I take an integrity step, support for that step shows up. I see this as the 'Universe's Matching Program.' I take an action that's aligned with what's true for me, and support  shows up. 
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By integrity move, I mean an action that's in alignment with what feels right and true to oneself. It might mean quitting a job that no longer fits, or choosing to take better care of your physical health. Sometimes it means speaking up about something, or conversely, keeping quiet.

I could give lots of examples, but experience is the best proof. If there's an integrity move that you could make today, do it, and watch what happens.  If it doesn't result in support showing up, check in and see if it was truly in alignment with you. If it is, then stay clear and strong. Sometimes there's fall-out from old decisions we've made, but don't let that distract you. Stay clear, stay true to yourself. 
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This principle is non-negotiable, so rest assured, after any initial uncomfortable shifting that might take place, a smoothing of the path is on the way.

​I'd love to hear what you think. Please share your comments below. 
Peace, Michele

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